Are there ever times in your life where you feel so completely tired of being who you are? Tired of how you look, dress, act, think, move, etc? I go through times like these. It’s funny really, as if I actually had the option to completely change everything about me. I heard a Radiolab podcast yesterday and the segment discussed if we even have a thing called ‘free will’. Apparently, your brain starts firing to enact an action before you even think to do it. So what should I do? If I have no free will and my brain acts how it wants, what do I do about changing me? Buy some new clothes? Cut my hair? Do something completely out of character?
Maybe a change of scenery is called for. I find a new atmosphere brings on a sense that there is a possibility of a fresh start. Somewhere no one knows me, somewhere I don’t know anyone. It’s liberating and tantalizing at the same time. Even if I have no free will, I can still feel as though I can change the inevitable. Micah and I keep revisiting the notion that we should move. It’s like a cycle; stay, go, stay, go, stay, go…..
Yet, times where I feel I need a complete overhaul of who I am, I always want to move as far away from my current location. Does that make me a coward? Running from my current predicament? Maybe. Or perhaps it’s the push I need to move forward.
move to new york city.
we can all live in brooklyn together, it wouldnt be weird at all!
Lets do it! Start looking for a sweet pad, the Vandie family moving in!